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BulimiaI put my head up,looked at the mirror.
"Look at you",I said.
"Your eyes are red of crying,
Your face blushed of pain,
You have a scar on your hand,
Thanks to your teeth".
I really tried to be perfect,mama,
I really am trying.
Why do I keep hurting the ones I love?
And my heart is beating fast.
I think I am gonna fall.
Catch me,darling,don't disappoint me.
I need the smell of your skin on me now.
I love you.
My thoughts are lost in the paths of their perfection.
I am a stranger there.
And I was still looking at the mirror.
Talking to myself.
Staring at my own bulimic reflection.
"Look at you!You are beautiful even when you cry!".
Have you ever been in love,grandpa?
Why is something in my stomach pulling me down,grandpa?
Why do I feel sick?
Why do I have a need to throw up when I think of him,when I realize I miss him?
I need him,grandpa.
More than living beings need the sun.
You understand what I mean,dear.
I remember your stories,please tell them one more time.
All I need now is a cup of hot milk,without the cream,like what you used to make me when I was just a little girl,when I didn't know pain,when I didn't know love.
I want to listen,grandpa. I really do.
I am happy,yet why do I cry?
You found your woman. And I found him.
I need to touch him,look at him.
I just want to fall asleep in your embrace,like I never used to,grandpa. I need that someone takes care of me,and you always did.
I don't want to cry because of Disney cartoons' endings,I really don't.
I miss him,grandpa.
Have you ever been in love? What is love?
I need his hands in my hair. I need his eyes on me.
It's not that I can't live without him. I just don't want to.
He's my everythi
Can you promise me?
I buried my fingers in your hair
And my head on your neck.
I wanted the tIme to stop,
Just for a moment or two.
You put your arms around me,
Pulling me cLose,
Close to your body.
I could feel its pulse.
Your skin smells so good,
I love when I smell like you.
I need you to prOmise me
You'll never leave me.
Can you do that?
Can you promise?
If you do,I am afraid
My heart won't surVive it.
And it's simple to say those words,
When you're the rEason why I breathe.
You are the reason why my heart is beating!
I don't know what's happening in your head.
Do you love me?
God,hear my praYers.
I know I wasn't the best,but I am trying.
I am just a girl who loves,nothing more.
We're all the same in frOnt of God.
I adore you,amore.
I need your touch on me,your fingers between mine.
I need to feel your warm breath on my neck.
Your lips on me.
I trUst you,in a very strange way.
Never let me go.
I hope you know what my heart says.
I need you,amore.
-How much do you love me?-She asked him with a smile.
-This much-He spread his arms as far as he could.
-Well, that's not a lot at all- She said putting her head down.
-You did not ask a scale-He smiled-So that could be quite a lot-
My name is Roxanne and I am gonna tell you a story of a woman.
And that woman is me."
These streets are so dark,
They are pulling me down,down into the night.
How did I get here?
I am in the embrace of THE red light.
They all want my body,
And they love it for a while,
Look at yourself!!Look!
You're the brightest star of them all.
See,darling,you're the most beautiful one,
But still,you chose to fall.
Your wings shattered,
And your soul went black,
Did you ever regret it,my dear?
You keep it silent,there's no way back.
You left heaven behind you,
Do you miss it? I know I do,
I miss the innocence and the glitter,
The sweetness of the clouds and the truth.
I miss my wings,
Yes,honey,I lost them too.
See,when you fell,
I jumped. I fell with you.
I just wish you'd take me in your embrace,
Hold me tight and never let me go
Your sinful lips on mine,
Send me the wind and I'll know.
I can feel you all over,
My body is sinful,my soul is almost gone
I know the taste of your scent,love,
And I know your body is still warm.
And one day,I just felt the known heat;
I felt your lips on my neck,your arms around me
I looked at the mirror,how fucking good we are together.
And in that darkness,I knew,you'll never leave.
Pull me closer to yourself,mon cheri,
This night is full of wonder
And never let me go,mon amour,
Kiss me under the lights of a thunder.
Let it rain
And hold me tight.
Seal a promise on my lips
And it will be alright.
Take a piece of my heart,
I would give it to you either way.
Hear the clock tick
It's telling you to stay.
I love when you call me "love'',mon cheri,
And I absolutely love your skin on mine.
You're holding me in your arms,
Oh,what a beautiful way to die.
Don't ever let me go,
My blood runs faster through my veins,
If I ever had to leave,
On my last breath"Mon Cheri"would be the last words to say.
You are my other half,amore
I pulled your shirt to my body,unzipped,
To the beat of your heart.
Your head was close to my face.
You smiled,your lips almost on mine.
Having your arms around me is what I live for.
I looked at your eyes and asked "why".
Why here,why now,why me?
I like the scent of your hair,
And I absolutely love your cigarette's smoke,
In my hair,on my lips,between your fingers.
Our bodies intertwined,it just feels right.
I adore your whisper on my ear,makes me feel safe.
Your warm breath on my neck,mixed with your kisses
Makes my body loose control. You drive me crazy.
My soul is so close to yours,never let me go.
I need you,your lips fit on mine.
Your fingers in my hair,and my fingers in your hand.
I love when I feel your heartbeat.
It makes me feel like I belong in there.
Never give me up.
Hold me in your embrace,I need you,amore.
I opened this box
I know he told me not to
I just couldn't resist
That was my forbidden fruit.
It was the only wrong I did,
My one mistake,
But I am allowed to have sins
I am just a woman made of clay.
I watched the darkness Embrace the Earth
Earth,that you,Mother Gaia,left us.
I watched the colors turn to grey.
Hate. Sickness. Envy. Lust.
Yes,I removed the lid
It wasn't even heavy
I guess I saved him somehow.
That trap wasn't even made for me.
But you know,
Zeus loves his sons.
He put a remedy at the bottom-
Hope-when you think all is done.
And I watched the centuries pass
Suffocating,drowning in my own "whys"
I could have saved these innocent souls
Now,the world echoes with my cry.
I don't have any words to say,
My lips make sinful sounds
I would rewind the time if I could,
But the world keeps spinning around.
A Wilderness Adventure
Winter had taken full effect on the northern Canadian wilderness. When it was not snowing the snow on the ground would glisten with the reflection of the sunshine or the moonshine. The Canadian Rockies hold back modern civilization with a chill that would send chills down the spine of the toughest of human kind. That is what makes life in the wilderness so much harder for humans to exist in.
A warn down house lays on the northern edge of a small valley between tall mountains that seem to reach the sky and various pine trees that littered the valley. It has been abandoned since 1954. No one had lived in the valley since. Yet the great explorer Matt Hester, and his wife Ashley, decided it may best to raise a large family in this extremely ridged valley. They wanted to prove to Matt's work that it was possible to still live in the frontier in the present day.
Matt Hester is a professor at the University of Alaska at Anchorage. He taught geol
The feeling of HopeThe feeling that you always speak of
It ponders in your head, day in day out
Never sure how it got in there
What happened? Where did it all fall apart?
Is that the feeling?
Don't be sad or concern about it because it will drift away
All feelings do step aside just don't know when or you feel to weak to decide
Move on it will be hard but it has to happened
Or else you'll be in regret
There is no comfort in words it just feels like nothing
Having that feeling that nothing means anymore
I have that feeling
It kills me from the inside that I can't feel
I have gone numb
Lifeless just going day by day feeling, is it worth it anymore?
But it has to mean something
Why does stuff happen, there must be a reason behind it
But you may not know the answer to it
But I can't move on because I see something more to it
I see there is hope in this
That little hope will set me free
That hope will give you the strength to overcome it
That hope will strive for something better
That hope will give a new mea
Before she says goodbyeBefore she says goodbye
Slam the door in my face
And a dozen roses laying on the floor
Before she says goodbye
I told her I loved her
But it was too late, she already hung up
Before she says goodbye
Give her a kiss
To make up the times that you made her cried
Before she says goodbye
She said we were made for each other
But she let go and fell into pieces
Before she says goodbye
I wanted a second chance
To hold you in my arms once again
Before she says goodbye
She asked you
"Why you even try anymore? It is unless, you can't get back what you already loss."
Before she says goodbye
Be at her place in ten minutes to maybe change her mind
But she wasn't home
Before she says goodbye
Break her heart of stone
And set her free
Before she says goodbye...
I walk alone
My shadow is here beside me
I should have been there for her more before she said goodbye
You're taken advantage of.
Manipulated every step.
Like a stringed mannequin,
You move when you are told.
Walk where your master directs,
Never missing a beat.
The life you live
Is not of your own.
You live what people want you to,
But this ends now.
With the scissors
To cut the strings
And set you free.
I've stolen the key
To open your cage.
And I can see
It's rusted with age.
Will it still fit?
If it does,
Will you come?
Come with me,
To escape this tragedy?
Why am I with you?"Why am I with you?"
A question you seem to ask a lot
Many answers can fall under
Was it your face?
The way you laugh?
How you look for the best of me?
Is it your personally?
The way that we are different in many ways but we still work it out
But yet on a deeper level are the same
Is it that I still love you?
Even when my heart is fill with anger or when I was just cranky
I still try to see though and think back to the girl that was so innocent
Beginnings were rough for us
You know that, I know that
It is good to have reminder once in a while that we still care to one another
But now I walk alone on this road of broken dreams
Where you used to walk beside me
Is now left is a shadow of a broken being
I look back to see if you were still there
But I know you move on, to a better life
I was just a stepping stone for you
I wish it didn't fall apart like this
I wish I could of turn back the clock to do it all over
But just this time do it
I am with you because I gave you joy and happiness i
Keep On ShiningThis truth it has stabbed my heart
Like a thousand needles slowly making their way
This love has made me fall apart
I'm broken glass, I'm the broken glass of man
The stabs gets harder every day
The needles they come closer to my heart
As I grow it tears me to pieces
I'm tattered cloth, thrown in the litter
As I try to recover and stand straight
I realize how crocked my back has been all this time
I can't walk straight
Cause my guilt and my shame, brings me down
But even thought through all this
I have still small light that shines to me every day
Cause even in my darkest days
It can still make me smile, it always wants me to live
I talk like this is all over
I talk is as I'm soon to die
But the truth is
I'm here to stay, just to watch that small light, every single day
What do you see?When you look into my eyes
What do you see?
When you speak my name
When you pull me close
Are you really that broken?
So you no longer feel the love I give
The affection I show
Or the hope my eyes try to be
Come over here now
Tell me your truth
Show me those tears
And I'll tell you my truth
Show you my fears
I'll tell you about a girl
A girl who found hope in the most hopeless boy
Let me wipe the dripping sorrow of your cheeks
as I figure out what you need right now
Let me be the first person ever to be there for you
I'll tell you this story,
I'm sure you will appreciate it
the girl is cute and boy so strong
A happy ending too, just as it should be
Just as it will be
So come over here now
Crawl up into my arms
Let me listen to your heartbeat
so I can hear you be alive and healthy with me
and I'll let you listen to my calming voice
so you can relax and learn how to rely on someone
Then tell me, when you look into my eyes
what do you see?
FairytaleOh if it would be true
Would I say I love you?
If I could let go...
Would the scars still show?
When the letters would make sense,
And built into solid words,
Would I then take my chance,
And fly in the mass of birds?
Could I keep the colours from bleeding in,
When I wipe the blood from my chin?
The lifeless body would lay still,
Counting the days to the next kill.
Would the bombs lie to rest?
The weight be lightened on my chest?
When I close my eyes in silence,
Asking for God to stop the violence...
Then we might embrace the sun,
Our feet aching form the run,
And melt in each others arms,
Blending out a thousand alarms...
Could we be then be safe in heaven,
In fairy tales we'd count till seven,
Smoke and fire mixing with steam,
The pain banished by joyful gleam...
We'd be free to smile for real,
To savor every moment we feel,
I'd wish to spend these moments with you,
The only person who won't have a clue
How much I need you by my side,
I can't resist the urge to hide,
But honey, I thi
I BelieveA thousand times I walked along this line
Dreaming of the other side
So far away, yet next to me
A strange new land
Full of possibility
A million times I wondered why
I had now wings to spread and fly
Until I found them inside my mind
Finding freedom hiding in my soul
Accepting the necessity of lost control
I wonder now, could it change
If I changed in time?
If I gave up fear and just crossed the line
To explore the unknown land
Instead of wondering what might be...
Do you think I'd open up and see?
I'm tired of hiding my curiosity
It feels wrong to deny this side of me
I want to know who I might be
If I open my eyes to see
I believe, oh I believe
That time will change us all
I believe we will have to fall
We'll have to die
To be alive
And all the little pieces
All the shatters of my past
Will fall into place
Like tears from my face
Into a brand new life
A life I will proudly lead
The girl who loves
Play with it.
Then throw it.
I don't need it,not without you.
I am cold,dead when you're away.
You might as well break the son of a bitch into two.
I told you,stay away from me.
I am pure sin,I bathe in others pain.
But look what happens when a sin meets the Devil,
Dancing in the dark,kissing in the rain.
I never knew there could be someone,
Someone as sinful as me.
My darkness,your touch has enchanted my soul.
And now,you're calling me your queen.
But what are we,my love?
Just a couple of mortals gone to the bad?
In the end,we are all humans
Without many words left to be said.
So here's my heart,on the silver plate.
I kept my lips silent,my body was in your arms.
I am falling,I know this is hell,
But promise me I'll be your lucky charm.
I need to be your other part,
The one I am,the one brighter than your moon,
The pretty face you kiss in the mornings,
Love,you made me trust you.
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